Pivotal vicissitudes in my life happened at the Army of Youth Asia 2017.
Struggling hard while on the crossroads, I plead for peace and power (DUNAMIS). It had been for a few months prior to Malaysia mission trip. Since I missed attending the AOY 2016, it had been a constant prayer to be able to make it this year.
Albeit I was sad that I disappeard at PYC 2017: The Appearing (May 31-June 4), and missed a lot of blessings, I was hopeful that I would make it to AOY 2017.
Broke and Broken
I was BROKE!
But I have tasted and seen God’s goodness and providence for many years that “If it’s God’s will, it’s His bill”, so, in spite of a bit of angst, I was clinging to His promises. But God taught me to lay everything at His feet. He prompted me for an absolute reliance. I registered on June, even I didn’t have anything at hand.
I was overjoyed that even after a short mission trip in June, my boss granted me another work leave for AOY. I registered in June even I wasn’t sure if he will approve another work leave for a week. But God showed me that He’s in control.
He also provided means, touched the hearts of some friends to support me in prayers and finances. I’m very grateful how God made them channels of blessings! *Promises in Philippians 4: 6-7, 13, 19 claimed!
Providing a family to adopt us at Penang, I was so blessed to have spent quality time with Dr. Thomas and Maria Tean, and their children at their cozy home during AOY. Sister Nunuk had been a channel of blessings too at Kuala Lumpur for most of us, Philippine delegates, before AOY! God is indeed a Great Provider and Sustainer!
I was BROKEN!
I’d been on and off with my blogger’s burnout and writer’s block since last year, so I had to cease accepting international and local writing/blogging projects for the past months. My blog even had a fatal technical error that prompted me to give it a break. I don’t know if you can relate, but just imagine how hard it is to feel like being shackled, not being able to do what you love. Writing and blogging have been my creative therapeutic crafts especially during our greatest family crucibles in 2011-2013. But the therapy became a malady!
Moreover, I’d been BROKEN by my sins and the consequences of wrong decisions, unmindfulness, selfishness and pride. God taught me more at AOY about full surrender in all aspects of my life. There’s beauty in brokenness, because Jesus is close to the brokenhearted. My Wounded Healer touched me and made me whole again!
A particular burnt bridge was rebuilt in answer to prayer. I believe God did it! I struggled coz of the prejudice with someone I thought I’d fully forgiven already. I didn’t expect the person to be there and we ended up praying together! God just melted my heart and gave me peace. God restored our friendship.
Of Prayers and Answered Prayer
I’d been hoping and praying to be back to full-time missionary work since late 2015. I wanted to be more involved in frontier missions, but still waiting patiently for God’s green signal where to serve with: SULADS, PAMAS or Philippine Frontier Missions. I’ve initially discussed my desire to serve with the directors and coordinator of those organizations. I’ve requested fellow prayer warriors to pray for me.
The visit to Aenon Health Care Center/Bible School before AOY was another answered prayer (after many years), and I was impressed and inspired to undergo medical missionary training to equip and prepare me to where God wants me to serve. I have no means, but our God has a thousand ways to provide His children! “If it’s His will, it’s His bill”.
Enriched and Empowered
The life-enriching messages from guest speakers, terrific testimonies, superb sessions, empowering “upper room” experience, mirthful music, fascinating fellowship, healthy and hearty meals, nature quest and season of united prayer amidst the waterfall were tremendous blessings which my heart can’t contain! My cup runneth over!
I praise God for leading me to attend Ptr. Emmanuel Baek’s sessions on “Knowing God’s Will” to help me understand His plan for my life. It’s really moving and inspiring. He invited Bro. Eugene Prewitt to join him and share about knowing God’s will on relationship and marriage.
I was enlightened! It made me thirsty for the Living Water and hungry for the Living Bread. I praise God for the reservoir of the Holy Spirit! Absolute reliance is indeed needed in crucial decision making!
“Every closed door doesn’t mean God says NO. Every open door doesn’t mean God says YES.” ~ Ptr. Emmanuel Baek
I’m still on the crossroads, but no longer struggling. I have peace. I’m no longer broke; enriched with God’s enormous blessings. I’m no longer broken; empowered for my next spiritual journey. I’m enthralled where God would lead me!
“We have nothing to fear for the future, except as we shall forget the way the Lord has led us, and His teaching in our past history.” Life Sketches of Ellen G. White, p.196
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