“We must live a twofold life — a life of thought and action, of silent prayer and earnest work.” EGW, Prayer p.25
Today’s the second day of feasting while fasting, and I’m so blessed already!
It took me several weeks to finally make it. It’s been a lingering plan since I was convicted to have fasting for 21 days (best time to form and strengthen new habits). It’s figurative, to shun and detach from all possible distractions with my communion with God: social media, some activities and even some godly friends.
I took a short break today because I watched President Rodrigo Duterte’s Inaugural Speech, (16th President of the Republic of the Philippines) (live through Facebook). I just wanted to be informed.
I craved for solitude. I long for serenity of heart and mind. I desire to have an intimate walk with God. I’ve been hoping to finish reading two among the several books I juggle reading: Daring to Ask for More, and Could It Be This Simple?
The gleanings from the field of blessings overflow! Especially on feasting on His Word. This morning, during my personal devotional, I’ve focused reading Matthew chapter 6. Promises upon promises consoled my soul, especially verses 19-33.
These are timely messages because I’m on the crossroads. My work in Flybook Travel and Tours ended on Friday last week, and I’ve been praying for greater guidance on what to pursue: full-time freelance writing or full-time missionary work.
Actually, I’ve been longing to go back as a full-time missionary again, with full reliance on God. But I’m also mindful of my responsibility with my family. Having been orphaned from Papa for almost three years, means a serious (financial) role to carry since I’m the eldest (our late eldest sister died almost four years ago).
God never forsook us in spite of shortcomings. He always provided. I’m grateful for IFO, a very responsible brother (eldest son, next to me), for being a good channel of provision.
Meanwhile, I want to pay forward God’s kindness and generosity. It won’t always be monetary, but through selfless service and simple acts of love. But I know, home is my first mission field. “You don’t have to cross the sea to be a missionary”, the song goes. Unless I become a responsible missionary at home and the community I’m in, I won’t be truly effective in other fields.
My earthly best friend advised me to seek God and wait on Him. I could be useful in the work place where God would send me, like a mission field. I can take care of my family, while taking care of God’s work too! But if God is really calling me to serve Him fully, then, I would be at peace, knowing that He would take care of everything.
“If you do all the talking when you pray, how will you ever hear God’s answers?” — A.W. Tozer
Prayer is a science I’m still learning, and its mysteries I long to uncover. I join Luke (11:1) in his petition: “Lord, teach us to pray.” In response to what Tozer said (as quoted above), I should WAIT on GOD and SHUT UP.
Actually, that’s been my mantra that I want to fulfill. I’m loquacious and I murmur sometimes. I always wanted God to know my wants (albeit He already knew even before I utter), even sometimes I’m not sure if that’s what He wants for me. And I always get so distracted to listen!
How would I know His answers? I should LISTEN! And this listening means prayerfully studying of His Word — not the pre-chewed spiritual food (other Christian books). It’s so timely that my bestie, Violaine, left the book which a friend lent her: Living by the Book. It’s systematic and practical! I’ve learned a lot already from the several pages I’ve read.
“What you believe will determine how you behave.”
“The reason God can’t use you more than He wants to may well be that you are not prepared.”
Like Mary Magdalene, I should constantly sit at Jesus’ feet for learning. I shouldn’t be like Martha, her sister, who’s anxious about many things.
After delving deeply with Matt. 6:20-33, I noticed that I’m not following the Bible Year Plan (Amazing Facts), while holding it and thinking, I’m highlighting the verses. Luke 6 has 49 verses after all! Haha!
I think it’s providential, since I need direct answers from the Lord. I also read Luke but focused on chapters 4 & 5. Jesus’ temptations in the wilderness after fasting (literally) and praying for 40 days, and His triumph thru God’s Word: “It is Written”, had been a reservoir of inspiration! My spiritual cup runneth over!
In retrospect, the same temptations which Satan used to lure Jesus then, are the same today. In Hebrews 4:15 , it says that Jesus was tempted in all aspects, yet He was victorious. He never compromised from these major temptations:
- Food, in place of God’s Word.
- Worship, in place of power.
- Presumption, in place of faith.
Actually, it boils down with the issue of idolatry and worship. It moved me to ponder what are the idols which clutter the throne of my heart, which dethrones God.
Worship isn’t just an act of praise and prayer. It’s a lifestyle. I hope this feasting while fasting would produce a lifestyle for His glory.
“The mark of spiritual maturity is not how much you understand, but how much you use. In the spiritual realm, the opposite of ignorance is not knowledge but obedience.” Living by the Book, p. 21
Note: Photo credit to Jeruel Ibanez for the food. Video credit to Ministry in Motion.
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